As one of you I have a few words to say to you all. Our generation, as a collective, has given up. We no longer have to fight for anything. Some of you are 18+, some younger, like myself, and you receive everything you need on a silver platter. You do not have to try for anything. If you need money your parents just give it to you.
I have come to this sad realization only recently when I discovered that in under two months I have spent close to seven hundred dollars. I did not make any extensive purchases or donate to charities. It is really tough when you finally find out that you can not be carried everywhere. You need to learn to walk. I feel that I have. I do not buy my own groceries or clothes or other things of the like, so I admit I am not on my own fully. I suppose I have just spent this money on cigarettes, food when I go out, transportation, supporting a worthless man for almost this entire time, and trying to have some fun during my summer. I feel disgusted with myself for what I have done and I am at a loss as to what I should do next. I cannot get a job because as you know by reading my blog that I am leaving in less than a month for a three month road trip.
I guess it all boils down to this, I am not looking forward to being single for an extended period of time. As well as stressing over what happens when I come home. What do I want to do with my life? I have no clue. Yeah I want a job and a profession and to be successful, but who doesn't? I know I should not let my future worry me and know that things will all fall into place and everything will work out. I just wish life was not such a mess sometimes.
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